I had a bit of a meltdown at home on Friday. Since being diagnosed last May I have sort of kept it all together emotionally but in hindsight that probably wasn’t wise and now I’ve cried I feel close to tears all the time. With all this bone pain I’m having in places I’ve not had pain I’ve sort of convinced myself I have got Myeloma. I am having my next lot of blood tests done tomorrow and seeing Haematologist on 4th March . I’m normally quite calm about it all but I feel really uneasy this time round. I keep telling myself I’m being silly. The difficult thing is saying you’re fine to everyone when inside you’re not and acting normal. Its so hard. I’m scared…..there you are…I’ve said it.
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