Hi Ann, fingers crossed for you this Thursday, I know you have been having some blips of late with your blood but it may not necessarily be what you fear most. Sometimes there is no real rhyme or reason for how things seem to pan out – I had the blip of bloods like you then it went back ok never to seen again and at the mo I have hardly any immune system – again no reason and everything seems ok – so consultant shrugs and I think it will just pan out like my low bloods did and I’ll never know why it occurred. If I were you I would just be merrily overdosing on treats right now right up to the consult to try and stop “going there” – go back to all your old coping strategies – my favourite was chanting “worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, it empties today of its strength” – try and live in the moment for now – don’t allow your positivity to waiver…we are “strong, brave women”….that is my teenage daughters little mantra at the moment!(nothing to do with MM just lifes hiccups in general I hasten to add). I don’t know if you are now trawling the myeloma beacon for any background stuff but there is a posting on 22/5 discussing bone pain whilst still in complete remission…so it is possible. I am a little behind you, remission wise, so know that jittery feeling of feeling the rain cloud darkening and feeling ill equipped to cope with any downpour but deep down we know, when it happens, we will just put up the umbrella and plough on. Let us know how your consult goes, good luck.
Rebecca
