Hi Chris,
Have been reading your posts and I understand all the emotions you have and are roller-coasting thru. What I wanted to say is that I was dxd with MM in February 2001, after a routine medical at work. My major symptom was a painful mid back. To date I've had radiotherapy for the back pain, VAD, auto stem cell transplant in November 2001, maintenance program with interferon which had too many side effects and stopped. Had about 18 months before I started off on another road of treatments including Velcade, low dose Melphalan, Thal and Dex. Had 2nd stc in November 2008. using cells harvested in 2001. My maintenance program was Thal. which I am currently off because of awful night cramps, but last blood tests showed no mm present.
I have travelled to Canada, Las Vegas, Hawaii, San Francisco, Caribbean and hopefully next month of to Venice. I've never let the MM become part of my life, of course, I am aware of what I cannot do, my consultants say it is my bloodimindedness that keeps me going, which is true.
When I was first dxd Velcade was still being trialled there have been so many new treatments in the past 11 years and there are more still to come. It is hard to deal with at first but believe me there is a light at the end of the tunnel and the road maybe bumpy at times but you will get there.
Take care and stay positive, love Valerie