Hello Ivan
so sorry you have had to join this group,you will be in shock and it will take a while to come to terms with it I dont think anyone truly does, as for crying I also have a close family we all did a lot of that.
This site is so valuable for help and information and the Myeloma uk help line is brilliant there is always a professional person on the line to talk you through your problems keep in touch and let us know how you get on
Love Jo;-)