Hello `Yvonne, sorry for the late reply, I’ve only just seen your November post, I understand exactly how you feel, I too was diagnosed with Smouldering Myeloma, about 18months ago went through all the emotions you have described.
I don’t think you can forget it totally, but for me has become easier to accept, I tend to have a little bit of a wobble just before I go for my regular blood checks thinking what if it is worse, but for me and hopefully for you it will stay fairly stable.
The advice I would give is try and live your life as normal as you can, as it can be quiet easy to get swallowed up with the whole thing and it to rule your life, take each blood test as it comes, you do have days when you think about it a lot, but as time goes on those day are less frequent.
Hope all goes well
Barry