Hi Rebecca, Thank you for your open and honest message, I appreciate and am grateful for your contribution. I am sorry that you were reminded of a darker time and grateful that you have shared some of your mindfulness stratergies with me. I leave myself notes for the morning and my breakfast time, reminding myself just to breath and relax and you know what I got up and got going and am doing the very best with the cards that I have for the day. In one way I am lucky as I already have a miriad of other incurable diseases and the amount of things that my poor body has been through that this just feels now like pop it on the pile and we will get to it. There are days when the stairs look like mounting the Eiger and every thing is so heavey that I have to remember to do it in steps. I guess that we all have days. Today I pottered in the garden and the sun was out and it was a great day, though Friday I was told I was not well enough for the chemo and it felt like a step back, though they now are going to change my schedule and I will have 2 weeks off and then 4 weeks of a lower dose and then book the stem cell harvest and the transplant. I have to admit that the transplant is a very scary thought.. Thank you for heads up of the stem cell being the beginnng and not the end, I agree that it is going to have to be a life change and I hope I can get the niggling itch in the back of my brain to quiet itself for a little while. I truly agree with you life is always a choice, sometimes the choices are 2 not so good choices but still we choose.
I am so pleased that you chose to share a little of your journey with me and inspire me to stay with the hope that things will change yes and hopefully for the better.
I wish you well and hope for you that your respite from this disease stays with you for a long long time in the future.
Thank you for your kindness and caring.
Frances
