Dear Georgina and All
I have been following your posts and am so sorry to read of the distress that you are all feeling. Everyone finds their own way to deal with the passing of their loved one. My darling mum died at the age of 60. Although it was expected it still came as a terrible shock. I too Georgina was with my mum every day and we did everything together. When she died, I have never felt anger like it. I was angry at mum, angry with God ? I use to yell and scream at both of them ? how dare my mum go and leave me. I could not go into town shopping as I would get so upset seeing daughters with their mum. One day in Tescos I bought her potted herrings and didn?t realise until I got to the check out what I had done. I was loosing it ? then my aunt told me to write a letter to my mum ? telling her everything ? how I was angry with her, telling her about the kids, memories, what we were all up to and about her new grand son (he was 6 weeks when she died)? the letter lasted a complete exercise book!! It helped me greatly. Twenty years later I still read ?my letter?. I agree the pain does not get easier but as the cliché says ?you learn to live and accept it?
I am so sorry for going on but your posts brought back so many memories. I don?t know how to finish the post but I wish you all well, love and peace of mind.
Love Jean xx
