Sarah
I am so sorry that you have this extra burden on top of loosing your lovely Gordon. People as you know grieve in many ways. When my mum died I was so angry at everyone and every thing. I could not understand why these people were walking around and my mum wasn't. I am not making excuses for your MIL but maybe she is shouting for help as well. I have been to counsellor when mum died – I honestly cannot explain the anger that I felt about every one I could not understand how every one was going on with life when I felt so devasted. I also went when Frank was diagnosed. Once again- anger. So as Gill says maybe talking to someone would be a great help to you. The crossword is also a good idea. Take care of yourself, you definitely have enough to be going with and I hope that you get the peace ofind that you deserve.
My love and hugs to you. You are strong, you will get through this.
Love Jea x