Thank you Pat,
Thank you for replying, it’s great to know there are people out there who are prepared to give a little time to help you through this, even with the support of family and my partner is fantastic and so understanding and caring it’s such a stress for him too.
I have been very busy today and spent most of it doing housework,even took the dog for a walk which I haven’t felt able to do for a few months- poor thing, like you said I think it must be the steroids. This must be the norm then, on my first dose which I have on Thursdays I was ok then Friday and Saturday I was busy and felt fine, but Sunday I was sick and in bed half the day and felt terrible which slowly seemed to perk up until Thursday again. It’s very difficult to know how to plan things at the moment. I decided to take the Thursday and Friday off work, but I should probably have taken the Monday instead. They said different things might still happen after the second dose, wait and see I guess. I have been a bit extra worried because the initial plan was to admit me on a cardiac monitor until after the second dose but then they changed their minds. Obviously its great not to be in hospital, who would want that, but it made me more worried and I haven’t been sleeping well.
Moving forward it seems like there might be a pattern, which is something I think can be managed in a positive way. It will be good to feel well on a Saturday!! Next course they are talking of increasing the velcade to a higher dose and then on the third course I hope to be able to move the treatment from the Royal free out to Chelmsford so we don’t have to do the drive every week. That will be something to look forward to!
You are right, it’s good to be positive but when you are alone or at night when you can’t sleep, it’s sometimes hard to get your head round the enormity of the situation and that it will be for ever.
Thanks again – it’s good to offload.
Linsey