aaaaahhh thankyou all for replying . i hope we can remain strong friends through this because we know how much means to have a friend right now .. i certainly say to myself what happend to the old sal but she in there somewhere .. i go for my velcade again tomorrow n again friday then have my ten days off .. i go to clinic 14th may so i shall let you know how get on hopefully my pp will have gone down some more .. im always worried incase it goes up though i really must ask if i remember if it can . so much to remember isnt there ?? thanku all for gettin back to me i dont feel alone now xxxxx