THANKS ELLEN,,,IT IS SOMETHING ABOUT,MY SELF DOUBT,AND NOT BEING ABLE TO VALIDATE MY OWN FEELINGS,,,PEOPLE WANT TO RATIONALISE,FIX,CHANGE,,ETC,ETC,,,WHICH JUST ADDS TO MY PRESSURE,OF APPEARING A CERTAIN WAY,,,[ITS ALSO FRUSTRATING,THAT MY MUM AND 2 SISTERS LIVE IN UK,,AND I LIVE HERE IN NEW ZEALAND,,AND I STILL CARNT GET BACK UK,////ALL BEING WELL,GET BACK,NEXT JUNE2015,,]GO WELL