Hi Kash
It is perfectly reasonable for you to feel highly anxious waiting for your results. I think everyone on ‘watch and wait’ who has MGUS (the precursor pre cancerous state of myeloma) or smoldering myeloma (low level disease that doesn’t benefit from immediate treatment) would be very nervous. It seems to be part and parcel of myeloma, with everyone, whether with active disease or not, needing regular testing, always heightening patient anxiety.
If you were diagnosed with MGUS (monoclonal gammopathy of unknown significance) your risk of it developing into myeloma is only 1% a year (5% for older people), so for most people it just remains as an anomaly that doesn’t do them any harm. Fingers crossed for you.
Your symptoms don’t immediately jump out as those commonly reported by myeloma patients, although bladder incontinence is reported in the literature, but it is an odd disease which can affect many organs and body processes and I would tell your haematology team about your bladder issues (& aches). As you said it’s odd for someone of your age. Myeloma tends to be quite a slow disease, a marathon for patients rather than a sprint, so 3-6 monthly testing should pick the disease up before much damage is done.
I’ve found that over time it does get easier to manage the anxiety that goes with regular testing.
Hope this is helpful