Thankyou everybody, it's been nearly three weeks now since my dad died.
Although the initial anger has faded away, the distraught is still present.
I'm not looking forward to going back to University on Monday, but it has to be done. My mum is not herself (which is not out of the ordinary), but at least I know my 2 brothers and sister can be there for her in my absence to make sure shes not on her own.
Thanks again, I have read all of your comments and am touched by the kind/wise words that you have given me.
I'm sure things will ease and the way in which we deal with the pain will get better, but right now it seems so, so far away.
I'll keep everyone updated
Joe