• Thanks Tom

    Yes I've been to see my friend, I've tried to calm her down and ask her husband to look after her…God I feel crap. how your supposed to carry on when seen what I've seen is beyond me.. Sister just left but all I want to do is break..Just shows you, when your disabled your left to rot

  • Hi all I need someone to talk to so hope you don't mind my moan.

    I sit here alone watching the tree my grand-daughter put up. I miss Michael so much and want to hold him tight. I then get a phone call telling me that my best mate has Parkinson's disease.She has been like this for 2 yrs, going to the same doctors Michael went to. She got told by…[Read more]

  • Dear Min and Gill

    I still go for counseling. Because it took over a yr for any help I had it really bad.
    I've learnt to let my tears out and I've stopped blaming myself. My grand-daughter put up my tree, but I just want to throw stones at it. Christmas Eve will never ever be the same again.

    Min and Gill please accept my love, my thoughts…[Read more]

  • Hello Susan

    Thank you for your kind words. I hope you are coping well. My grand-daughter put my Christmas tree up because I still feel like I'm celebrating his death.

    Please try and remember the good times you both had, don't hold back your tears because I found out you need to let them go, I still do that because I held them in for so…[Read more]

  • Roz replied to the topic My Loss in the forum End of Life and Grief 9 years, 7 months ago

    Dear Carol

    I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my husband 18 months ago. Yes it is still hard and yes I'd still do anything to see him again. But when I look back to the man who fought for 18 months to survive this terrible cancer and took his life, I know wasn't Michael. The canvas's on my wall of the 2 of us is Michael.
    What I'm saying is try…[Read more]

  • Thanks Eve , Eliz.

    Eve I know what its like to be there for your daughter, and not have it recupiated don't no if thats the right word. Please don't leave it too long before you talk together, Rachael admits she treats me horrible, doesn't know why, but I have seen she has gone and left me behind. Hope your daughter doesn't do the same… Hope…[Read more]

  • Roz replied to the topic Rev Failure Mk II? in the forum Treatment 9 years, 8 months ago

    Dai, I wish you all the best…Keep pushing the consultants, and fighting em while you can.

    All the best to you

    Love and best wishes
    Roz xx

  • Roz replied to the topic HERE WE GO AGAIN !! in the forum Treatment 9 years, 8 months ago

    Hi Bridget

    Just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you in your troublesome time.

    I hope and pray things start and pick up for you. I wish you all the best and wish I had a wand to wave this all away.

    Love and best wishes
    Roz xxx

  • Thanks Tom
    Your a star who I come to when I cannot cope


  • Thanks David.

    I think of you all as my mates, you stood by me through Michael's illness.
    It's hard and Rachael and Lauren hve moved on but cannot see it so its like loosing 3 people even though they are still alive, but I don't see em unless I beg.

    All the best for the future.

    love Roz

  • Roz replied to the topic Another relapse? hope not! in the forum General 9 years, 8 months ago

    Hi Keith,

    Fingers and toes plus everything else are crossed.

    Hope everything is ok with you and your not going through it again.

    Love always Roz

  • Hi Tom

    Thanks..Yes I've employed someone else to help me for another 24hrs. I'm now able to go to meetings, see mum more cos she's in hospital and generally get out because without someone to drive me I'm house bound.

    And yes I did nearly comit suicide but 2 best mates and mum got me from doing it, If my mate hadn't got em to do any…[Read more]

  • Thank you

    I'm trying to carry on but it is very very hard


  • Roz replied to the topic Revlimid Failed in the forum Treatment 9 years, 8 months ago

    So Sorry Gill,

    I agree with the others, but knowing how we wern't allowed to travel when this happened to Michael, I no by experience that everything is put in your way to stop you going.
    I wish you both all the best and hope Stephen can carry on alot longer.

    Love to you both

  • Hi All

    I hope your all doing fine, well as good as you can be!! I decided to write to tell you how life has moved on.
    I still go for counselling, it took ten months after Michael's death to start so I suppose I'm not doing too bad! May the 7th was Michael's birthday, this was hard. It was harder than last yr, but friends have told me I was…[Read more]

  • Roz replied to the topic HERE WE GO AGAIN !! in the forum Treatment 9 years, 10 months ago

    Hi Bridget

    So sorry about your news, but I'm glad about the other.
    I'm sorry I missed this earlier when I came and checked on you all. You all mean alot to me, so please try and keep strong. I'm so sorry it's happening to you again…It always happens to the good guys thats what I say now adays.
    I wish you all the best and hope and pray some…[Read more]

  • Roz replied to the topic Moving at last in the forum General 9 years, 10 months ago

    Hi Eve,

    So glad things are moving along nicely for you both…you know what I mean by that so please forgive the pun. Sorry its taken me so long to see this only come on the site now and then, but I'm still interested and care about you all.
    Give Slim my best wishes.

    Love and all the best
    Roz xxx

  • Roz replied to the topic Terrified in the forum End of Life and Grief 9 years, 10 months ago

    Dear Joe,

    Sorry about the loss of your dad. Haven't been on here for a while.

    Michael my husband died from it as you probably know. So I know what your mum is feeling. We had been married 30yrs. As long as you are there for each other at this time and also the future, your mum should be fine. Your mum will be feeling things differently to…[Read more]

  • Dear Nicola,
    I'm so sorry that it has come to this so soon. I'm also so sorry for not replying sooner. I come on this site every now and then these days since Michael went in Dec 2010.
    I'm still raw but not like you are at this moment.
    Please try and remember your dad in the good days. I went and had some canvas's done and they are on my walls.…[Read more]

  • Roz replied to the topic Alone in the forum End of Life and Grief 9 years, 11 months ago

    Now don't tell fibs Tom, you took a picture of yoyr full breakfast before you ate it.
    Glad your all right too.
    I'm trying to get on with it Eve, but I know deep inside even though everyone tells me she uses me I'd love for her to come through my door.
    Bet no card comes for mothers day, never got onelast year either and that hurt like…[Read more]

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