Hi every one its John, The hundred days are coming up, Starting to get a bit frightened, But when i read all your posts I have to be strong for all you guys..You are remarcable people, and this is a problem you didnt choose.But together we seem to be achieving something. I feel ive known some of you for years, and i go to bed every night thinking of you which helps me drop of. I feel we are an army, and we are all fighting the same enemy. This is not me typing this out as it would take me weeks. I wish i could give more advise, but feel that some of you are way ahead of me.But tonight because ime not on my own i just feel the oppertunity to get in toutch. I went to a funeral of my freind on friday who died of lung cancer
he was diagnosed in July, I was diagnosed in April. We spent some time together, and i found that we both knew what to say on approaching the subject of our complaints. I have been a bit depressed, but today i realised that i am still hear. A song come on the radio and it was by Arlissa.. Called sticks and stones For some reason this seems to give me strength, and it makes me feel good and happy. This seemed to be the tonic i needed rather than counciling! You must all listen to this and tell me what you think?? I may be a bit mad, But im the happiest ive ever been in my life..As every day is worth double of what it used to be, Wish my friend could call round a bit nore often, and then you would hear from me a lot more. Is that a good thing ??? Or a bad thing. As you probably know i came out of Liverpool hospital on the 28th December following my stem cell transplant, Back to work in 2 weeks, All the normal things that most people seem to get, but had to push this anger into energy, So i had my first game of babminton 5 weeks ago last monday. To walk onto the court and to realise im still alive and appreciate that somebody would have the time and patience to give me a game, I must admit i had a tear.But as soon as the shuttle cock came over the net my attitude completley changed from appreciating the fact that im hear. I wanted to be a winner. I find that is the same with this disease, To appreciate that weve got a chance the survival attitude takes over to try and achieve more, and beat the apponant or to stay the other side of the net as long as you can.
Trying to get to some of the info days to meet some of you people doesent matter to me where they are, I have got a mentor, and he lives down south
Im hoping to go and see him soon..as he has helped me a lot. Are any of you going to the info day in Leeds in March ????? I went to manchester in September, wanted to say things but hadnt got the bottle! Just need a little push. O.K Im of know love you all and all your posts are in my mind beleive me. Please feel free to phone me on 01244/ 403610
John Cadwallader King of Gwynned xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
