Dear Lisan My husband has had a relapse after 15 years, he has just finished steroids and is about to start chemotherapy again and a booster transplant, what you are going through I thought about all those years ago when my children where small, now I think about it now they are teenagers 17 and 19, it is so difficult my husband is 44 I am 40, i have been with him through so much since I was 16 years old when I first met him, the only strength that i get, is when I pray, I often wonder how we managed all them years ago, but we did.
Nobody know what lies in the future whether it be bad or good, i look at life now as i have always done, i take each day as it comes, and deal with it, sometimes i do not understand the reason behind anything in life, except that life is a journey, and no one knows where, and how, it will end. keep strong, ride each wave as it comes to you with your grief at this time, I have to be strong for my children, it is so very difficult, but i know, even though they are older now, they need me more than ever, to show my children strength, even at times as bad as this, is what keeps me going, because children learn from what they see, I know it is so difficult but i believe this will get you through this hard time of separation from your husband. I too will pray for you, and your family, when all else seems so distant and lost, sometimes that is all we have left for hope and the strength to carry on.
All my love to you and your family From Trish
