Dear chrissie
I am so sorry that your husband has lost his battle with mm as did my husband in August, I wish I could say I know how you feel but I do not remember it is as though my mind shut down, I am not sure it is right now. Please take of yourself see your gp and get some pills. I take them to help me sleep, I would have gone mad without…[Read more]

Hi Eve
Yes bamks a thieving lying toe rags!Gordon made the farm business account a partnership with our son which ment that the account carries on after death as there is a partner, Marks name is on the cheques and has been for 5 years he has been signing cheques, the problem is the bank did not complete the paperwork! I am so fed up with ' I can…[Read more]

Hi Bridget
We all go to the carol service and sing at the top of our voices with loads of children who all seem to be singing something different! Wonderful! Gordon always hated churches so never came, so some thing will be the same. yes the house will be full, they gave up on the 5am when they started to come back from the pub in the early hours…[Read more]

Hi Bridget
What a terrible thing to happen, you know grief very well. I keep missing the killing, i love subtitles why i dont know! I am just about to get sky + so i will be able to record it i think!!
Sarah xx

What a fantastic way explaing grief, I feel like that large ball in the jar all the time, it diminished for an hour when i watched on the bbc about the scrap heap orchestra,at the end they played the 1812 overture with bangs and smoke and loads of noise, it was wonderful, when it finished i realised that for a long time grief was not first in my…[Read more]

Hi Min

I have taken the decision that i am not doing christmas cards this year i hate just my name all alone, so i am not doing it! Writing lables with just granny is bad enough.
I do so feel for you Min i am so lucky in having my family here all the time in and out daily, when i am alone, it is terrible and does not get better. I do wonder…[Read more]

Hi All
Gordon died at 59 his father died 12 weeks later at 90, his mother is still alive, me bitter? You bet!!
Gordon had a cousin and two 2nd cousin all of who died of blood cancers when young, i am sure there is some sort of gene link.

love to all sarah

Hi Sandra
Wish i had known about yours as well i would have come!! You sound as though you are keeping well, my husband gordon died in august, his 1st sct was wonderful and lasted 6 painfree normal years, then 18 months revlamid then a second sct not so good, give my regards to dr g and sharon when you next see them
best wishes sarah

Hi Eve
Gordon had a toooth taken out before both his sct in the dentisat chair with no problems. Good luck to slim.
sarah

Hi Eve
What a lovley christmas present! I am so pleased for you and Slim.
Sarah

Hi Min

So sorry you are down, I am too and i dont have the excuse of gordons birthday, i guess the anniversarys are going to be very difficult. i do not think i will send many cards this year cannot cope with one name at the bottom, but grandchildren do help so much.i hope tomorrow is not to difficult will be thinking of you.

sarah xx

Hi All

Just wrote a huge post and the whole lot dissapeared! Cant do it again! I am glad all went well David all funeral are very personal, I want to go under the tree in the back field, a very special tree.
Eve I do hope slim is feeling better.
love Sarah

Ah Tom

What a lovley photo! A real chip off the old block.

Sarah

Hi Gina

Very sorry to hear of the passing of your mum. I am sure you have many memories of her and i am so glad she was able to share your special day.
Take care
Sarah

Hi Eve
Due to some amazing friends, who did so much to contribute to the coffee morning we made £432 in 2 hours, the event was held in our beautiful wedding barn with little children up one end on tractors having a wonderful time inbetween eating cake and fighting!
Dai your 1st christmas and new year with Janet sounded magical, bet you have…[Read more]

Hi Eve
The last few christmas's have seemed strange due to my parents and thier problems rather than meyloma! I have started shopping mainly fot the grangchildren (i just love them) three less presents to buy this year which will feel very odd.Gordon was always very unreliable with his shopping last year I had a little chopper to cut up the…[Read more]

Thanks for starting this post Tom, forgot to say that I was born in 1953, Gordon in 1952. he made it to 59 years old and was diagnosed in 2002, his treatment was at Eastbourne and Kings college london.
All the best
sarah
ps I am trying to find a new picture,but i hate having my photo taken so may take some time!!

Hi All
I farm in east sussex with my son, we have land on the pevensey marshes which are lonley and beautiful we scatered gordons ahes there as he loved the peace and the seagulls.
sarah