Dear Ellen
I think another post is needed, I have had such suppourt from this site and to leave now will give me another hurdle to overcome with Gordon and my father dying within 6 weeks of each other any help is gratefully recieved, plus hopefully we can help each other, it is great to know that i am not the only one going mad, becoming very…[Read more]

Hi All
My fathers funeral today, what beautiful weather!! Had a wonderful funeral lunch with his friends and family, i cannot grieve for him, he was 86 for goodness sake!! Vety healthy all his life no chemo or sct for him, I feel for Gordon though, he now has my mother and father sitting on his cloud!! My little granddaughter still waves to papa…[Read more]

Hi Eve and Roz
Not to sure how to reply to you both, Roz I understand the lonelyness and I have children and grandchildren around all the time there is no one to chatter to about the day to day things!!
Eve my boat partner is very deaf takes her hearing aids off when we sail, very difficult to sail with a partner who cannot hear, but we managed…[Read more]

Hi Dai
What lovley news!! Enjoy do what you want to do, just do!!
with love to you both sarah xx

Dear Min
I have also missed your post, cyber space!! Everything you say I agree with so much, Gordon and I at last had time and extra finance to start to enjoy our free time together, to say I am so bitter to know we never will, is an understatment. My cousin proudly told me yesterday that she had 'beaten' me as she had celebrated her ruby…[Read more]

What a good idea min! I find that i am unable to leave the group, how do you abandon cyber friends?
Cars, well in April i changed my little MG Midget which i only used in the summer for a mercedes slk 250 convertable, i can put a child seat in the front no back seats, totally impracticle, but such fun, no room for any luggage or a big food shop!…[Read more]

Hi Min
thank you for sharing your finds in the loft of what is obviosley a very loving and loved husband. Maybe one day I will understand why such loving and loved husbands, wives, children are taken when young and still have a lot of living yet to do. Today I found out i am to be a grandmother twice next year! My daughter in April and my son in…[Read more]

Hi Bridget
I do hope you feal better soon, I am so sorry you had such an awful journey home, hope you slept well and the antisicky pills worked do you ever try ginger in its various forms? I always knew when Gordon felt bad as he craved ginger!
Many cyber hugs Sarah xx

Hi Dai
He never woke up just carried on snoring! My father was a very fit man going blind when gordon died he was very distressed and decided he no longer wanted to go on living.Very sad but that is what he wanted.

Dai I just love the way you write and describe the way you feel it is wonderful.

sarah

Hi Gill and Eve

Une grande rose s'il vous plait.
Cannot spell anything else
well done Gill enjoy
sarah xx

Hi All
My father died this morning, not unexpected, just wish I could feel something.
with love sarah xx

Hi Dai
So pleased for you and Janet, long may it last. Do not feel guilty for having this wonderful news we need on this site some good positive results, it really cheers me up to know mm does not have its way all the time!.
Look after Janet ( what stupid thing to say!)

with love sarah xx

dreadful spelling

Hi All

I love the sea, the smell, the colours, how it is never the same and the danger, the sea demands and deserves respect!
I love my children my grandchildren
I love the South Downs and the beautiful green, springhy turf, that looks like vevet.
I love the fact that I have rediscoverd my sister after Gordon's death and the fact that I have…[Read more]

Hi Min

Lucky you!! I have not been able to rany and rave at anyone, they have all benn so kind, but i did tell o2 they had lied to me and i cancelled gordons phone, but i was very polite, whats the matter with me!!

Eve do appriciate what you are saying there are many sick people out there, what a dreadful thing to happen to Slims money,…[Read more]

Hi Min
Love yor story of yhr flowere from british gas!! I am longing for a good row!! I have told o2 the phone people to shove it, but very restrained, companies seem ready to take advantage when reacently bereaved try to sort out the paper work. Tried to stop the credit card after 8 mins on the phone waiting, thought s…d it so we are carring…[Read more]

Hi Min
I was so glad i gave up work, being a nurse there is no way i could ever look after anyone again, i would only need someone to moan that i was late for a visit, and i would sock them one or two!!
Do you look at so many couples with greyish hair and feel so sad that the time to spend with gordon/peter has been taken away, that there is no…[Read more]

Hi Roz and Min
I am also, like you Min suurounded by imagies of gordon when was well, I need help with my youngest son, who (thank go )lives at home with me,how selfish I am. Roz you are on this road ahead of me, i am sorry i do not know the words to help.

sarah xx

Dear Min
Hugs many of them, i need them as well. I know so well how you feel, still keep thinking gordon will be home from hospital like you so use to being alone. Francesca waved to papa on his cloud tonight, broke my heart.

with love sarah xx

Hi Min

Thank you for your very brave post. Gordon would not speak to me in the last few days in fact looking back we hardley spoke in the last few weeks, I because i was terrified of saying the wrong think and him getting cross with me, both of which happened alot over the last 10 years, one of the last lovley things he said was to say sorry,…[Read more]

Hi Bridget
So pleased your app for rx is getting closer, i don't mind you moaning and groaning!!! I do and i havent any pain!!
with love sarah xx