Hello John and June so sorry that you are having a tough time, i recall being so very worried at this point too, and then you start learning about the illness and with knowledge and time things settle a bit but life is never quite the same and everyone has a unique experience but is also shared in part, there is lots of helpful advice and support here for you both, my Mum is stable at the moment and enjoying being at home and although limited due to the myeloma she is having a reasonable quality of life, but we wait for the next bit that is bone biopsy results and further chemo as her liver appears now to be recovering thankfully. Mum had two cycles of RCD and it hit the myeloma hard hence her feeling better but sadly more chemo will make her feel sick in due course, it is a horrid illness and for you as a carer their is nothing worse that seeing someone that you love go through this, but the better days will come for you both and with support you will learn to cope, as Eve said Ellen and Maggie are super to talk to and can advise you on the journey as will the hospital staff, and on this form you can reach out too, love to you both San x