Dear Rachel
I am so sorry,Paul seemed to be doing so well,and if any one should have been able to get extra time,it should have been Paul,as he was one of the younger and fitter one,s on this forum,my thoughts are with you and his parents.
I lost my grandson with an infection all so unexpected,the shock and numbness,leaves you drained,I think time just gives you an acceptance that there was no more that could have been done.I know how much Paul enjoyed the out door life,I hope you will have wonderful memories to cherish.Please also remember you are also not alone.
Take care of yourself,I wish you a good future.Love Eve